Jason Lamer / Youth Alive Missionary

Sometime humility can work against you.

One thing that I have not been liking to much about myself lately and really noticed over the past few months is that I don't 'speak up' enough. I sometimes feel an urge to speak up, whether in staff meeting, class or through out the day, and I let my humility and sometimes fear keep me quite. I particularly noticed this when I realized how different my relationship was with some of the Masters students compared to some of my peers. It was very convicting to me that I really need to work on my relational skills. I did decide to reach out to some of the students and since have been able to sow into some of the 1^st year guys. But I still sometimes feel like Moses, telling the Lord that I'm a stuttering idiot. Except that I want so badly to be used by the Lord. I want to be apart of His ministry. I guess that I was challenged even more tonight, like I have been from so many other speakers lately, that I need to step out and learn, take chances and challenge myself. I have been so blessed by this class and seen some real growth in my own personal life. It is challenging and sometimes convicting to take in, but I love it.